ah alberta

so work was interesting, cutting hair with no heat in the middle of winter is crazy. my hands were frozen. our furnace crapped out at the shop. but at least we had hot water and blowdryers, cause that wet hair was COLD! space heaters take a long time to warm up that concrete box. but on the fun side of the day i bought the sweeny todd sound track. he he, makes me happy. and tomorrow is immuniseation day. ugh....i mean woo hoo! can you sence my sarcastic enthusiasum?

canto alla vita

dedicated to the one who guilty or innocent
lost in this sea
yielded to the stream
who didn't even be a winner?

dedicated to the one always keeping a hope
in front of a sorrow
in the cold of a room
dedicated to the one searching his own freedom

i sing to life
to all of it's beauty
to every wound of it
to every caress of it

i sing to life and all it's tragic beauty
to pain and to strife
but all that dances through me
to the rise and the fall
i've lived through it all

dedicated to the one who always made it dry
like possessed, slipped though the fingers
it was always already over

i sing to life
reflected in your eyes
easy and endless
promised land for us

i sing to life
sweet and even fierce
to this journey of ours
which still puts us in chains

it calls us.....

don't ever doubt
don't ever doubt
don't ever leave it alone
alone

still....

i sing to life
to all of it's beauty


Cheope

30

well i've only been awake half an hour and it's - 36 according to my thermometer outside my window. that's without the windchill. holy crazy cold batman!!!!! and brock got up with naestra this morning to let my sleep, but then had to wake me up cause she puked a lot in the middle of the night sometime, but never made a sound. so she's had all the sticky fruit snacks washed from her hair already. we were debating a movie this afternoon, but it could be too cold to go anywhere.-54 with the wind chill apparently! ah Canada! as much as i hate the cold, it is a certain right of passage and source of pride for all us Arctic dwellers.

bitter sweet

so i got to see a very fun movie yesterday with my girlfriends. and i must say 27 dresses has my full support for anyone looking for a fun date movie. and i think it has one of my favourite movie moments in it, it's tying with a molin rouge moment. high praise i know but i'm willing to risk it. on the flip side, we walked passed a poster of heath ledger as the joker for the new batman movie and it stopped my heart and made it weep for a moment, purely for the tragedy of the loss of life. someone seeking so hard and internally tortured too much. i know he's not the only one to befall the same type of fate, but it's in out faces more so we are more aware. i think of how my heart aches for the pain heath must have been in, how much harder is it for our Father to watch us go though it. may we be sensitive and merciful.

waaaa

stupid writers strike. i'm pouting now because "ugly betty" is also now out of episode's. no more mark and amanda. who's dad is gene simmons?! crazy soap story lines they use. but it's fun!

lol

as i'm getting dressed for work, alarielle is playing in my room. and when i turn around, she's got 2 purple bra inserts on her face. " what have you got there?"i asked, to which she exuberantly replies, "eyebrows!"

ahhhhhhh

things that make my soul happy
James blunt making a parody of "your beautiful" to "my triangle" on sesame street. he he he!

long time gone

both my babies happily are take a nap this afternoon. that's right, i said "how about a nap?" and they both went happily running to their room chanting "nap nap nap!" and cheerfully climbed into their beds all on their own. if only every day was full of such happy obedience. then again, i think our Father feels the same way. giggle.

my taste truely is impeccable

ho ya! Josh was the biggest selling artist of 2007! and i think quite worthy of the honor! and then they go and wreck it all by making retarded merchandise to buy with his name and logo all over it for valentines. ugh. i mean i am a fan but i am NOT covering myself in his merchandise. talk about crossing some sort of creepy stalker line.

and i must say i really was sad to hear of Heath Ledger's death. i did really enjoyed his acting, but you always got the feeling he was an extremely tortured soul. i guess it can overwhelm any of us.

there's only a few precious days of my 20's left. come Tuesday i am "an adult". HA! you'll never take me alive responsibility and adulthood! but i do get to start the celebrating on Saturday with the Lincoln Brewster concert, then penny and Frankie are apparently hijacking me overnight Sunday. so fun, then it's Tuesday and Jim and i are gonna go shopping. and we'll see what the rest of the week brings!

fabulous at 3

so we went out shopping and running errands today and my diva of a 3year old got herself a fur coat and matching purse. so stinking cute! gotta love post christmas sales! it's still a little big for her but now she has a fun church coat for next year and a purse to keep her crayons in. and let me say how HAPPY i am to have girls. i watched "superbad" on the weekend, and suddenly dealing with the bras, short skirts and periods doesn't seem so bad. i'll take it over the horny degenerates teen boys seem to turn in to for that phase of their lives. then again in the midst of the "i hate you" screaming and crying at 14 with my girls, i may change my mind and trade pen for gideon.
but, here's to my last week of my 20's! next tuesday i'm 30 and life for some reason changes.as for me my plan is to become even less mature and responsible. ha ha! by the time i'm 70 i should be a completely derange burden on my children. as i yell at naestra to get off the kitchen table. ugh! i'm so gonna do that to her when i'm old.

7 hours later

ugh, 16 different meals 8,4-6 servings of each. but 4 of us have meals for a month in our freezers. sooooooo tired. need sleep.

and janurary just keeps rolling along

so for the good news first, michale buble was very fun! even got to do the YMCA. he he, but on the sadder side of things my grandma passed away this morning. so i may be off to the sun and fun of Saskatchewan. sigh. well, we're off to go swimming to wash our blues away. God bless.

storm

i can never get enough of this song. the image it paints is beautiful and echo's too true too often for me.

storm

how long have i been in this storm
overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
water's getting harder to tread with these waves crashing over my head
if i could just see you everything would be alright
if i could see you this darkness would turn to light
and i will walk on water
and you will catch me if i fall
and i will get lost into your eyes
i know everything will be alright

i know you didn't bring me out her to drown
so why am i 10 feet under and upside down
barely surviving become my purpose
cause i'm so used to living underneath the surface
if i could just see you everything would be alright
if i could see you this darkness would turn to light
and i will walk on water
and you will catch me if i fall
and i will get lost in to your eyes
i know everything will be alright
everything's alright

pain is part of learning who you are ( a shout out to all of my soul's supports)

this pre-life crisis is killing me,a beautiful tragedy
i wasn't me
we speak in silence words can't break
feels like i am falling awake, in a place and time of my own
you make it easier to be
easier to be me
fell off the world
fell from my feet
gave up on myself
you didn't gave up on me
let myself go, you were still there
like coming home, coming up for air
you make it easier to be
easier to be me

lifehouse

think it's about time?

well my house if finally normal( as my alarielle asks "mom where's the Christmas tree?"). no more magic and wonderful mystical joy of Christmas till next year. the trinkets are packed, the tree is disassembled, and a peaceful mundane is back in my house. SO.........the countdown in on people, just over 11 months till next Christmas!

oh to be 3 again

though i'm sure there are days my fashion choices aren't too far off.hehe!

quit groban my buble

thursday night baby! date night with the "second husband" to see michael buble! weeeeee! can't wait! he's no Josh, but he's a honey of a canadian!

and so it beings

it really is a blessing to have a father in law who knows how to fix any vehicle problem and build anything i can come up with. but on the flip side of that coin, when your truck breaks down and he comes to look at it and tells you that "you should probably cancel your insurance tomorrow", it's not the ray of hope you where looking for in that $8 bottle of fuel line antifreeze. so the truck starts but it won't move. sigh. and the possibilities for lots for us to build on are out of county. wooooh. i really do want to look back on my 30th year with great joy and love, so i really hope this is the begining a great ride.

lemon wacky hello

of course everyone has the shows we wonder" why did they ever cancel that?!". and just for the record i'm all over the "bring back futurama" bandwagon. but the little light of my life right now is the late 90'2 sitcom. "just shoot me". i do remember watching it in it's day, but i just bought season's 1&2 and it's laugh out loud fun. must find more seasons. he he. by the way, happy first birthday Gideon! love ya little man.

yet another set back

looks like our truck has bitten the dust. it's dead on the side of the road in the trailer park. and they're supposed to be plowing there again this week, so there may be another parking ticket too. weeee.thank god for pen and pj who rarely need pj's car.

you should just stop reading right now

i swear my bog is turning into a never ending whiny *itch session. ugh! but turns out we had to pay the "snow route infraction" ticket in the end. GGGRRRRRRRR! and our truck is baked again. only we are afraid this may be the end. sigh. no house, no truck, it's a fun start to the year 2008. i'm hoping the year is just getting all the bad out of the way first, and the rest of the year will be nothing but smooth sailing. or at least a quieter storm.