parental guilt

so feeling slightly guilty but not too bad. we took Tavin for his circumcision this morning. he did really well considering what was happening to him. i thought i did well even being in the room considering i can't watch any of that operation Dr type stuff. brock watched the whole thing and found himself cringing for Tavin. i said it was better to do now then when he's 14, then he'd really hate us. mom said he's gonna hate us at 14 anyways so we could have used it as a threat or punishment. now what act would require that as a consequence. hhhhhmmmmmmm.